I'm finding this New Zealand experience a bit of a weird one.
Don't get me wrong. It's absolutely fantastic to be be back here again ... seeing family and friends, doing interesting work with bright people, warm weather, world-class coffee. It's all good.
But my head seems to be swimming in matters cultural.
I lived in the UK for the first 27 years of my life; the next 9 years in Auckland, then moved back to the UK about 18 months ago.
Where do I belong?
I have no idea. And it's bugging me a bit.
Moving back to the UK surprised me. I thought I'd hate it, but I found myself enjoying the feeling of being back in the middle of the world. It's also been wonderful to witness the obvious joy that my parents and in-laws get from Callum (and vice-versa!).
I've grown professionally too. Over the last year Fio and I have created a business that allows me to creatively express my occasionally weird business thinking with the likes of the Royal Bank of Scotland, GlaxoSmithKline, Toyota, Natwest Bank and the John Lewis Partnership. And of course, my new part-time role as planning director at an advertising agency is pretty interesting and challenging too!
In a nutshell, it's great to be around family and my brain is being well-fed.
But I think when you live somewhere magical like New Zealand for almost 10 years, it's gets into your soul. Weekends away doing fun stuff in special places merges with the laughter of your friends into a visceral entity beyond words.
UK or NZ?
.....................
Decision made.
Both.
I'm going to make it happen.
Wish me luck!